It’s been a while… If I’m absolutely honest, I thought my post in November might actually be my last. I haven’t been feeling it recently. By ‘it’ I mean the urge to blog, to share, to communicate. Despite all its festivities, December was a difficult month. It brought with it, along with all the holly and tinsel, a faraway family tragedy (extended family but enough to make me stop in my tracks) and a very good friend going through tough times (thankfully looking a lot better now). Coupled with that, I had the guilty feeling that my Christmas just wasn’t cutting the mustard. There are only so many home-made advent calendars a girl can endure.
I’ve been questioning my tiny, tiny place in the blogging community for a while. Sometimes the internet seems like a popularity contest. And I am left perplexed at the rise of some blogs which I used to enjoy but are now leaving me cold. There are some that I continue to love, of course (Something I Made, Little Birdie, Tangerine Canteen among many) but some seem to have turned into marketing machines. I know it must be a hard thing to balance if you’re trying to make money out of your blog, but I’m really turned off by the endless press trips, sponsored posts (if I really wanted to buy a car seat or a hoover, I wouldn’t trust the recommendation of a blogger, I’d log into the Which site. I don’t care what it looks like.) I suppose I’ve become annoyed at constant attempts to make me buy things. It’s everywhere. So for the sake of my blood pressure, I’ve unfollowed some of the worst culprits and taken a few deep breaths. (Another 2015 resolution is to DECLUTTER and buy less shit. I have bought a lot of shit in my time, and have the overflowing cupboards, drawers, and let’s face it, rooms of the stuff to prove it. I don’t need any more.)
Which brings me onto my place online. I suppose I’ve shied away from actually expressing opinions on this blog because I’m scared of what people will think of me. I’m one of those people who annoyingly wants to be liked. But I do have opinions. And I think I’ve just decided I’m going to express them more. Some of them even involve heavy stuff like current affairs, and the upcoming general election (although I’m sure we’re going to get sick of that very, very soon.)
I’ve also been thinking about who this blog is actually read by. I don’t care about having massive amounts of readers (lucky that) but I do care about connecting with the ones I do have. So I’m going to make more effort on that front. There are some lovely people out there (well the ones I’ve met anyway) and hopefully I’m going to meet some more.
So Happy New Year everyone. Sorry for the semi-rant. I’m looking forward to getting stuck into 2015 with a little more honesty.
(Image is this print from Etsy. Also relevant for 2015 I hope.)